AP: Lauren, did you decide to keep your apartment?
SPEED: After we got married, I ended up keeping my apartment for about three months… But after three months, I was like, you know what? I’m all in. So, I ended up getting rid of my apartment and (I’m) fully in our house. Now, I just have my space in our house where I just go and close the door if I need some space.
AP: When did you know that you would say ‘yes’ at the altar?
SPEED: It was a decision that I didn’t take lightly… So, I would say even up until that day… I was a hermit before this show, like, I stayed in my apartment. And now I’m talking about being married and sharing a space and having a husband and becoming a wife. So that’s a big thing. So, I really thought about it thoroughly, and I’m happy with my choice.
HAMILTON: It’s hard to say what day, you know, in the process, but, it had gotten to a point where I had asked Lauren all the questions that I felt like I needed to ask. You know, ruled out any possible red flags. You know, we talked about long-term compatibility, family values, how we’re going to balance a household together, responsibilities, all these different things. And I mean, every conversation we had, I never had any doubt instilled in my mind from the conversations, it just felt right.
SPEED: Yeah, I was like, ‘You don’t have any doubts? Not one? Come on. You’ve got one. And he was like, ‘No.’ So, I mean… it helped me realize, like, ‘Wow, this man really loves me.’ Like I’ve never had someone that was so ready and loving and willing. Like, ‘No, I know you’re my wife.’ Like, no doubts. So, yeah, that was beautiful… Are you crying?
HAMILTON: No, I’m not.
SPEED: We cry a lot. We’re a crying relationship.
AP: You do see men cry on the show.
SPEED: It’s so important for men to be comfortable with their emotions. It’s like men feel like you can’t be masculine and also willing to be vulnerable when it comes to love or even just in general with, you know, showing your emotions. So I think that a lot of people really appreciated that with you.
HAMILTON: And my viewpoint on it is … if you’re willing to be that vulnerable to show how sensitive you are, to me, it’s a sign of strength. I’m not afraid to show my emotions. I know people might think it’s not masculine to cry, but I mean, I’m a very sensitive person, emotional person. So, I’m going to put it out there and that’s just how it is.
AP: What was the biggest thing you learned?
SPEED: That vulnerability is strength. And that love is not aesthetic. It’s so much deeper than that. Like it’s about your heart. I know that sounds cheesy, but it’s so true. Like it’s not surface.
HAMILTON: Yeah. And on that same vein, I think that people shouldn’t be afraid to be who they are. You know, they shouldn’t feel pressure to perform. You know, I think people can relate to you the most when you are just yourself. Even if it’s a little awkward or goofy.
SPEED: And love who you love. There’s somebody out there who will love you for you exactly how you are. Like, you don’t have to change yourself to make somebody like you. Be yourself.
AP: What’s next?
SPEED: So, Cameron and I, we know that there has been a lot of supporters that are like, you know, ‘What are you guys doing now?’… So, we’re starting YouTube to kind of continue letting our family, as we call them, into our life, like our day to day. It’s called ‘Hanging with the Hamiltons.’ So, we’re excited to continue our journey with you guys.